Watching and Waiting
No greater love has e'er been known,
Than to lay down your life for another.
My aim has been nothing but
To learn to love you as such.
Who'd give up her own ambition
Sacrificing to help me reach my own.
But who's strong enough to ask
I forsake my dreams for hers.
I thought we met once in high school,
We connected a moment. Just a glimpse.
A joke in class. The school dance.
But it wasn't you at all.
I'd lost you. Before we'd e'en met.
I searched. Wand'ring. 'Til we met in college.
Lives complete, then something changed
And it wasn't you at all.
I see you in a smile. A laugh.
But you're always distant. Just out of reach.
Did we meet the other day?
Our paths finally crossing?
Maybe for the final time?
Sunday, December 04, 2011
Watching and Waiting
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Decisions
I've spent the last couple of days taking stock of my life, and I think I've come to a decision. For years, I've been pushing forward with no goal. When you don't have a destination, though, pretty much any road will get you there.
Luckily enough, I've ended up on the road less travelled and I'm fairly content with both where my life is and where it seems to be headed. At the same time, though, I want more. Not out of greed, but out of this deep feeling that, while I'm still finding a lot of success, there's more I could be doing.
So my decision. At the moment, I'm working for an incredible, mission-driven start up company. I'm also managing my own business, an all-purpose marketing/publishing firm. Both jobs are fantastic. But they're both domestic, and I want to do something global.
What I'd like to do is keep moving forward in what I'm doing, but with two things in mind. I want my business to be profitable enough by the middle of 2010 that I'm earning enough passive income to cover my debt from school so I can move on to other pursuits. I also want the start-up I currently work with to be so successful that I can step out and work on another, equally important project.
Really, I'd like to be able to join the Peace Corps to work on business development abroad. Ideally, I'd start my application by January 2010 so I could be ready to start in Q4 of the same year (it's a long application process). If the start-up is up and rolling by then, and my personal gig is also picking up speed, I should be able to take the time to go and make a difference where I'm needed while still knowing I'll have something to come back to after the two year stint.
I know, it sounds like a crazy, wild ambition. But for once I feel like I have a target - a goal to push towards. I'm excited, nervous, and a bit scared ... and I like it that way.
So ... what do you all think of my insane decision?
Monday, September 08, 2008
Lost and Found
Don't you hate it when you spend 2 or 3 hours searching each of the ten places something could be only to come up empty? I've spent the past week looking for something that I know is here, somewhere. There are only three other places it could be:
- The attic - I'm not looking forward to searching up there
- Two closed boxes at the bottom of the pile in the shed - I can't get there without help ... and that would ruin the surprise.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Follow the Jumping Duck
I usually don't post about business stuff here, but I thought I'd break that pattern today - because it's a day of accomplishment.
Back in April, I finally pulled the trigger on starting my own publishing company, Jumping Duck Media. I registered the name with the state, bought a whole lot of Internet real estate (not really "real" estate, more like "virtual" estate, meh), and started talking up my new idea. As my brother would say, though, I was "all talk."
In reality, the idea of owning my own company and being self employed scared me to death. It still does, a little. Today, though, I realized a great many things.
- I actually know what I'm doing - I went to business school and got a fancy degree that tells the world I know how to manage a business, so why not manage my own business? The principles are the same and, now that I'm in the throw of things, it's a lot easier than I thought it would be.
- I like to try new, exciting, frightening things - Sometime I have to remind myself how much I like the adrenaline rush of doing something new and unexpected. I spend so much time worrying about what could go wrong that I forget it's the actual execution I enjoy.
- Every successful businessman started somewhere - Every great company started from a single idea and, in most cases, a single visionary trying to act on that idea. Yes, even the Microsoft giant started small ... so why can't I?
So here I am, ready to actually take on my first handful of writers and first couple book projects. Getting to here I've been publishing blogs and social networking sites, some of which are actually seeing success! In under a month, InspiredSmiles.com has collected 50 stories!
Am I still scared? You bet! But at the same time, I'm trying to harness that nervous energy to accomplish something wonderful. Wish me luck as I keep going!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Barack Obama
I had the priviledge this weekend to finally see one of my heros, Barack Obama, speak in public. I've seen almost all of his televised presentations, but never one in person.
The gates were set to open at 12:30 on Sunday, so I showed up at 8am to get a good seat. I was early enough, I was given the chance to volunteer and help set up and run the event! I had a nifty "volunteer" pass and was able to walk around the grounds long before the Secret Service allowed the general public in.
I did take a lot of photos before, during, and after the event. I also recorded some great video. The problem: I was using a brand new phone, and if you don't click the "save" button after recording content, it disappears about 5 minutes later. :-(
Nonetheless, here's a YouTube video showing some of the highlights of Obama's speech:
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Oh, Canada! (Part II)
Here's the video of the street performer that I promised. I must apologize, though, there's no audio and I was only able to clean one clip up enough to post online ... the rest is too bouncy to watch. Enjoy! Oh, yes, those are real knives ...
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Oh, Canada!
This weekend I decided to be adventurous. I've never had the chance to visit our neighbors up north, so I booked myself a trip on the ferry and spent the day in Victoria, B.C. I've watched a lot of movies featuring stereotypes of Canada, and was relieve to realize that none of them were completely true. As always, there's usually an element of truth in every stereotype, but the entire country isn't like that.
Here's what I saw in my day in Victoria:
- Six people used "eh" in a sentence
- If you ran into someone, even on purpose, they still apologized
- Everyone acted as if I was an old friend they had known for years when we talked
Keep in mind, though, I spent ONE day in ONE city, so this is in no way typical for all of Canada. Though it was interesting to see this behavior, as a whole Victoria seemed like any American city. It was full of 15 year old girls pretending to be 30, 50 year old women pretending to be 20, overweight men who don't understand the difference between a mid-rift and a muffin top, Japanese tourists, and obnoxious college students. In reality, I felt right at home.
Here are a few photos from the trip that I think you all will like:
This is the view when you come into the harbor. I couldn't see much through the ferry's fogged up windows, but this bridge just looked cool.
Here's a photo of the legislative building. It was one of the first things I got to see after going through Customs. There's a big statue of Queen Victoria out in front of it, but I didn't catch her from this angle. Sorry.
Growing up, my parents always told me that planting pennies would not grow a money tree. Apparently Canadian dirt is better than ours because they can grow umbrellas and windows!
I'm used to street bands being made up of one or two people with homemade instruments, lots of energy, and absolutely zero talent. This group, though, was incredible! I had to fight to the front of the crowd just to take this photo to show your thier setup. Unfortunatley, my camera doesn't take sound, so you can't hear just how good they were. Their following act, though, was a one-man act; some teenage guy with a guitar and even less talent than the washouts on American Idol.
The advantages of travelling by yourself are that, until you pull the wrong dollar out of your pocket, no one pegs you as the American tourist. The advantages of this are that you are constantly asked for directions, panhandlers don't ask you for money, and no one shouts at you when the anti-American protest walks down the street. I did feel bad for the two families in Disneyland t-shirts who got picked on, though.
It's great to go to other countries and look at how they do things. There's at least two trashcans on every block and one of these beauties on every other street corner. It's solar-powered, so it's free to run - and you don't have the disgusting, overflowing messes that permeate Portland, Eugene, and Seattle.
I didn't actually buy any souveniers while I was up there, but this shirt definitely caught my attention! I think it's hillarious, and it was almost worth the $10 they wanted for it.
I have video of this guy, too. I'm working on splicing scenes together and adding music, so look for a YouTube link sometime soon.
And finally, I've found the sailboat I want. I've tried to describe this to people for a long time, but having a photograph will make things much easier!
All in all, I had a great day! The boat trip to Victoria took a little over 2 and a half hours (a miracle for me because I don't really like boats), and I had about 6 hours to tour the city, people-watch, and take pictures. I was grinning for the first half of the day, it's exciting to just go out and do things (though the Customs officials were confused that I didn't have any set plans ...).
The boat trip back was a bit longer, though, because the boat broke. We were in the middle of the strait (couldn't see land on 3 sides!) and we hit a log or something and got it sucked up into the engine. It took them about an hour to clear the debris, but then they realized the engine STILL wasn't working. After a while, they turned off one engine and decided we'd limp back to Seattle at half power ... a 4.5 hour trip. The engineer got fed up with the slow speed and took the engine apart while we were underway, fixed the problem with the gearbox, and got us back up to 30 knots. We got back to Seattle only an hour and a half late, but it was still a fantastic trip!
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Photos from Seattle
I thought I'd drop in to let y'all know how it's been going. I also have a couple of photos for you from the past month. Wow, has it been a month already?
The job is treating me very well. I enjoy my work and the challenge some of our projects bring for me. It's exciting to work with big clients, or even just on big projects for smaller clients. All of our projects are very strategy-intense, and I'm learning a great deal that I'll be able to apply to future positions.
I took this first photo from the 14th floor office of one of our clients. Yes, I actually got to meet a client and attend a facilitated meeting. It was quite an experience!
This second photo is from a few weeks ago when it snowed in
Seattle. I find it ironic how, through all my years of school, I hoped for snow but now, when my job rides on whether or not I can fight the morning commute, I dread it. The snow was pretty heavy that day. We got about an inch in 2 hours. Luckily, everything melted by the time I got off work.
I think I'm finally settling is a bit up here, though the future is still somewhat uncertain. I'm still looking for opportunities for continuing work, so if anyone has a recommendation please drop me a line!
I'll check back later to tell you how things are going!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Updates all around
I wanted to give everyone a status update. I tried to give you a similar post last weekend, but my computer crashed right in the middle and I lost it all. My apologies. I've run away to Seattle. Just this week I started a 3 month internship at a prominent branding agency up here in Washington. While I'm in town I'll be living with my cousin in his very nice and spacious townhouse. He has several pets and, so far, I get along with most of them. I'm driving too and from work because the transit system up here is, in a word, unreliable. Even in heavy traffic, it's a 25-30 minute drive. The bus, however, is over an hour to work and almost 2 hours coming back from work. If I happen to miss the bus, it's a 45 minute wait (yes, during the morning rush) for the next bus. The same goes for the return trip. Driving really isn't as bad as everyone lead me to believe. The hardest part with everything is getting used to a new place. I still don't know anyone in town and really don't know my way around. Hopefully, the next week or two will let me meet more people in town and get to know the area a bit more. This first weekend with nothing to do and no one to talk to has been a real killer. Wish me luck, and I'll give you more details about my new position later.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Interesting Photos
My mom was sorting through a bunch of old photographs today. Among pictures of Colonial Willamsburg, a trip on Amtrak, and some unidentified child sleeping on a bookcase, we came across this:

It's a photo of my dad playing poker. I'm not sure if he just won a hand or lost one, but it is by far the most interesting photo I have seen of him to date.
I'll forward any of your comments on to him.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Riddles and riddles
Greetings to all my riddle-fiends. I am in the midst of a competition where I have to solve a very confusing and difficult riddle. If you would be so willing as to give me some tips, suggestions, or justified guesses to get me on the right track I would be in your debt!
Charged with maintaining peace and security, five permanent seats and ten temporary seats, Church House was first, what is the family name of the partner to where no man has gone before.
Just leave a comment with your idea and the reason behind it and I'll get back to you. Thanks in advance for any help. This is driving me crazy!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
New York (part III)
Here are a few more photos from New York.
This is a close up of the Statue of Liberty I took from the Staten Island Ferry.
This is looking back at Manhattan from the ferry.
I always thought this statue was actually on Wall Street, but I seem to have been wrong.
And finally, the New York Stock Exchange!
Monday, October 08, 2007
New York (part II)
As promised, here are a few photos from New York.
This is a photo of the chandelier on the first floor of the Rockefeller Center. Beatiful, huh?
Here's a gorgeous photo of Central Park from the top of the Rockefeller Center.
We ran into a random parade at lunch. This was the Polish Pride parade or something like that ... a lot of people speaking a language I don't understand.
After Times Sqaure and the giant ferris wheel in Toys R Us, we went across town and toured the United Nations. I've been dreaming about visiting the UN since I was a kid and I can now proudly say that I have stood on the floor of the General Assembly. This, however, is a photo of us in front of the UN seal. I have all the other pictures, I'm just lightening them because it was dark and my flash was acting up.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
New York
Just to give everyone an update, I made it to New York City last night. I'll be here through the 16th, and I expect to give you updates in the mean time. You should see photos from my day at Rockefeller Center and the United Nations sometime tomorrow.
Tomorrow will take me back to Manhattan for an informational interview and more touristing. If you can think of any good marketing firms I should stop by and visit, drop me a line.
Friday, October 05, 2007
You've GOT to be kidding me!
I'm a big football fan. So despite feeling somewhat ill this evening, I went with my family to watch my high school alma mater play ball against our old hometown rivals. Now, if you know me well enough you know I usually give the refs the benefit of the doubt and I will always acknowledge a good play by the opponent. Tonight, though, I can't say anything good about these referees.
There were two plays that I have serious problems with. And both resulted in touchdowns for our opponents. Play #1 was a kickoff by our team. The ball leaves the tee and takes an immediate high and wide bounce off the ground. One of our guys catches it on the bounce about 15 yards further downfield and gets a good 10 more yards before the refs blow the play dead. They spot the ball where he caught it and throw a flag. They give the other team possession, and then give us a 15 yard penalty for, and I quote, "interference with the opportunity to return the kick."
Play #2: We're already losing, so a punt from our own 30 yard line is to be expected. Ball goes up, opponent catches it, then trips and drops the ball. Another one of their players jumps on the ball and it shoots out towards the sideline. Finally, one of our guys dives and tucks it under, refs blow the play dead. Everyone stands up and our guys start to huddle so we can start our drive again. But the refs blow the whistle, AND throw a flag. They once again give possession to the other team, and call unsportsmanlike conduct on our team. Fifteen yards leads the opponents back to our 45 yard line, essentially negating the punt and leaving them with good field position.
I'll argue that both teams played hard. I won't argue that we should have won, but there was an easily observable bias against us. Even a few of their fans pointed it out. We left with a few minutes left int he 4th quarter. Down by 35, there was no chance we could win ... but the refs kept blowing the most obscure and, in many cases, impossible penalties against our team. It was demoralizing to watch, and I feel for every kid on that team.
I love football. I love it more when the outcome of the game is due to hard work by both sides, not random, inexplicable calls by the referees.
As my brother said after the game, the score should be:
Them - 28
Us - 14
Referees - 14
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Segway
I was walking through downtown Portland yesterday and once again saw an interesting sight. A public safety officer on a Segway!
Friday, September 21, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Correspondence
My girlfriend sent me a cute card the other day. I Photoshopped it and sent back my own version. Here's a photo of both cards side-by-side.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
American Marketing Association
Yesterday, I attended a luncheon hosted by the American Marketing Association. It was great! There was excellant food, I talked with extraordinary people, and we got to listen to a pretty good speaker on market segmentation. Unfortunately, I forgot my camera. This is the only photo I managed to snap with my cell phone. Forgive the low quality.
This is the crystal ballroom of the Benson Hotel in downtown Portland.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Help with graphics
To start out, I'll tell you to click the "Read More..." link to see my graphics.
I'm trying for something a little simpler than the crowd banner you see on my professional website. I want to go with the unknown perfect customer theme, but I wanted to do it with something small. It should be black and white, small enough to be used as an icon on a business card, but still catching enough to convey the meaning I want to get across. Click the link to see the two pictures I've started working with.
This first graphic I drew freehand and then cleaned up on my computer. I like the proportions, but the question mark is a little "blah" in my mind. I want something with a little more character and flare.
This one has more of the character in the question mark because it's an actual font on my computer. Only two problems:
- I don't think I can use this in production because I don't own the rights to the font.
- I can't get the rest of the image right on the computer. I might have to print it out, freehand what I need to, and then rescan it ... lowering the image quality.
So what does everyone think? Do you have suggestions for how I can have a jazzy question mark without losing control of the image? Ideas on how I can just spice up the first freehanded graphic? I'm just looking for a little validation on my design. And no, I will not be using this until after I move and need to get a new batch of cards to reflect my change in address. I will probably continue to use the crowd banner on my website but will add this graphic throughout later.




